The first time around all I had to worry about was me. Making sure I was healthy and comfortable.
Nobody had expectations of me.
Nobody was counting on me.
This time the pregnancy adds a little chaos to the mix.
It effects the whole family.
If I am not comfortable it isn't so easy to just sit down for a couple hours until the baby moves or contractions finally stop.
I have two other kids to take care of and of course during the times they need me to take care of them is when I get uncomfortable. That's when contractions start.
The beginning was the hardest. Just about everything but bread made me sick.
This made feeding the family especially hard. We lived off frozen cheese pizza and frozen bean burritos for months.
The first time I was able to make a hot fresh meal the table was quiet because everyone was busy scarfing their first good meal in awhile.
I am blessed to have a husband who did make some meals while I was sick and never complained about the frozen food.
I am blessed to have children who never complained about the food either.
No one in the family said a word about the mess the house was in because just moving made me sick. They all pitched in to help.
Even though no complaints were made I still felt like an awful mom.
I couldn't cook, clean, teach, or even be touched without feeling sick or getting sick.
Coming out of that sickness was like lifting a fog.
Things are better. Dinner is on the table and dishes are done.
Now we are all looking forward to the quickly approaching baby girl on the way.
The joy she will bring the family.
Even though I know happiness is to come I am worried about falling in a slump. Restless nights, possible crying baby, can I keep things together? Keep the house in order? Keep my tired self healthy and in the gym?
These are small worries to some and they will seem like small goals in years to come.
Knowing them now and preparing for them will help. God is with me and I am focused on what He has planned for me. God gave me a wonderful supportive family and my focus shall remain on that.
The pieces will fall into place.
The joys will come.
Smiles and giggles and little pink bows.